Okay okay.
I know I know.
I've moved came back and did that two times.
I left without explanation and came back suddenly with a depressing message and now all my art is gone.
Let me explain.

Okay it started about two years ago in 2015. I started my Freshman year and I was so excited. Now what happened was more school work more stress. (I don't tell people I'm stressed I listen to you so I always had a bad habit of keeping it in let's just say I've never talked to anyone and fully told them everything that gets me stressed out) now my boyfriend at the time was getting more and more I guess suspicious and kind of very cruel by neglecting me to hang out with other female friends of his. Long story short Cassie got dumped. Now a few months later I meet another boy he's so nice and funny and we hit it off it take a bit but by the end of the school year we were a thing. Now I decided to live with mother so I moved but she said I could take him with us since she saw how happy I was. Let's just say he added more stress as soon as he left he was almost always telling me how bad of a girlfriend I was, that my depression is my fault, and that he cut himself because of me. (No he didn't cut himself he was lying cause I Skyped him the next day) Now I'm very blind and vulnerable in love. I was just ignoring these problems these fights that were always dubbed "my fault".
Which they weren't I'd be talking about how I had a bad day or if I felt bad about myself and he'd turn it around on me. This happened last year 2016. After the summer when I stopped becoming active I'm pretty sure you guys noticed. And in the end he told me he loved another girl but if she turned him down he'd just stay with me. It was a week where he'd tell me he didn't love me but sure as hell confused the f*ck out of me. But at night my heart would just be so scared and shatter. Cause he'd tell me he would ask her out. Finally the Friday came she had to move so he turned her down. I felt bad I told him I was sorry for him. And more things lead up and more things and now I've been away from my DA account also my mouse broke during November so during December I got a much better mouse. But :Sleepy-Fox1: was very kind in putting up with my sh*t and not telling me to f*ck off but staying there with me and telling me she wouldn't leave.
To that I want you to give her all your love she deserves it I love her with all my heart she is my sister. And she proved it by staying by me no matter how I acted or how bitchy I was. But today was the straw that broke the camels back. Today I woke up with my back in pain, full depression, and the longing for staying in bed all day. But I went to school. It was Hell. I've never been more depressed. And I know what it was it was me letting out my stress forcefully. Don't worry I'm currently chugging through. I'm just trying to make it through the week. And remember if you're ever depressed and need someone to talk to I'm here. I'll help I know what it's like and if I don't I'll try anyway. I love you all.  And it won't be a hiatus hiatus but just where I'm not going to post anything I'm going to work on my style and try to build everything back up and become stronger and then I'll make a new gallery. Love you guys. ^^